I miss my xue di, I called my xue di up and heard that he's back in Singapore safely. As promise he bought me my 'I Love HK' t-shirt from hongkong. HAHA, but I heard he's sick and have to stay in for 2 weeks at home? I shall visit him sometime soon. Camp KO's drawing near and things are almost, almost done..

Just to let you know, I've been eating 3 meals a day now. Cold weather, a must have huge bowl of Pao mian. Naicha too.

The most expensive claypot rice ever + the best tau huay (Rochor) = Nice

A long day ended fine.

Just so you might know, I'm supportive of whatever decision you make cause I think it's time for you to step out and step up your game. I've been taught not to be a selfish person, because of my thoughts. I can hear my neighbours across my house playing mahjong cause they keep xi pai, my hands also itchy. Wo de bao e-mail me that he wants to go jogging and makan with me when he's back from thailand, I got this feeling he scared fat. Wan an.

Ok, I just quit my job. haha.
I finally realise that working is tough.
I felt that it'll interfere my walk with God in time to come. emotions.

I tell myself next time when I grow up I want to be a good wife and a good laoma.
I.. love my laoma.
I.. love my dajie.



Curry Peng veli nice. Mahjong with the fatties also veli nice. I had too many thoughts for today.
I'm tired, Wan an.

"Joanne, you should live your life like a 16 year old, stop thinking so much and be so serious, when we're just having a little serious talk, stop acting and being so old, be like a 16 year old."

One thing I know I need to do, is to control my thought life. I don't want to make decisions/choices out of emotions and thoughts, but rather out of discernment and with authority. Am learning. But I thought about it, why should I lead my life like a 16 year old when I can be more than this? I realize I'm very weird, God wired me up very differently. In fact, I'm happy that I am this way, be it good or bad, I think somehow having a very heavy thought life grows me, but still in the progress of learning how to not worry ah.
Bad situations trains us, Good situations promotes us.

"Joanne, do you trust me?"

If I say I trust you 70% then I'm sorry to say I don't trust you at all. Trust is 100%, so do you trust me? Am learning everyday.. I always get myself into deep trouble, but somehow I'll find my way out of it.

"Joanne, what's the different between a relationship with a stranger and a strained relationship?"

I thought about it, I don't dare to say that there's fully no difference, but I dare to say that they're similar. What's the point to have a strained relationship when both parties don't trust each other? Well, I don't know and I'm too tired to think now.


I'll miss my baobei bryan when he's at hongkong tmr. I called him just now and he said that he pack his laguagge already, and yes, as a very nice xue jie, I'm sending him off in the wee hours of the morning. I hope I can wake up. No, I must. My xue di. Another bao to me.

I told wendy today that I know she love me alot, and that I'm her bao to her. But she said: "....................." Shatter my heart into many pieces, she hurt me deep deep. I hope she sees this. HAHAHA

No standards, can feel it, am frustrated. Love doing something ≠ being called to do something.

I dont want to be caught up with something I'm not called to and stay stagnant because I'll reach a place where I hit the celling, limitting myself.. Imagine taping into God's resources and plus your own talent, woah your destiny leh. Do you see it? Anointing adds on the colours, improvement tells you to keep doing what you love doing because you're on the right path. I aspire to have bigger brains to think deeper. Wo xiang fei.

Usually I relate better face to face than on msn, but for some I relate better on msn than face to face. Hiding from me ah? I dare you to trust me with your thoughts.
Fang Ma Guo Lai.
Some fatty pui-de decide to Vs me with the BMI test, I fat cannot is it? I drank dou nai for supper in the end.. I make sure my BMI will be lesser than 20 by the end of 2009.
Fang Ma Guo Lai.

Everyday is a gift.

Eliot could have died long ago, but he lived for 99 days with his beloved parents who were there by his side. And I'm certain that Eliot being the reason, have brought both of his parents closer together even more. Be blessed. Live your everyday to the fullest. Treasure everyday with your friends and families. Let us not take our everyday go by so easily. I'm very moved by this video. Everyday is a gift from God. Cherish it. It's time to move and do something more. There must be something more than this.

What if..

The way we serve God is actually hurting Him?
We don't love people enough?

Zhen de sia, I can't sort my thoughts out now.

I had a great time at bbq today, even though it was a celebration for a birthday but it was a great opportunity to get to know more people and to know some even more. I finally realise, because end of the day no matter how irritating your family members are, they will start to treat you nicer and both parties start investing time in each other's lives no matter how different they are, no matter where we come from, no matter what denominations we're in, no matter who we are. You'll start talking to them, sooner or later you'll find brotherhood and sisterhood which we always had. I finally realise why in zone2 there was this brotherhood tshirt and why they do always do all these cheers, it's not for people to see, it really isn't.. I do understand, somehow..

Think about it, it was the same reason that brought us all together, Fuego De Dios.

God God God and still God.

I didn't even study finish two themes for Social Studies. I only studied two chapters. And it came out. Chemistry(?) One of my poorest/weakest/lousiest subject which I always fail and I was almost late for the paper itself. But I believe that God will help me pass.

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Went to study at superdog with enru and her sis brought us to eat rochor tau huay late in the night.
Then we were eating happily and I was chewing down on my you tiao and gulping down my tau hui..
Then I see myself few years down the road, driving a car with some of my friends going to rochor to eat tau huay and just relax under the moon.. HAHAHA nice. I can't wait for O's to be over. And it is ending..

I think at this point I dont know what my thoughts are. And I don't know what I'll be doing after O's end. But one thing is, God is with me. Fuego De dios is here.