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Sunday, 07 February 2010

Saturday, 06 February 2010

Friday, 05 February 2010


  • It hurts to not hear the truth, it really does. But i know it's been hard on you the past few days, even trying to make a decision for yourself. I hope you're happy, no, i want you to be happy, because it hurts us even more when if you aren't. we truly meant no harm with our words, it wasn't easy, i know. It wasn't easy for us too. My greatest worry for you is that you'll leave like how the others did. And i told myself one thing after they left, that if I, Joanne Ng is still here, I'll never let anyone leave me again, because I saw too many people leaving, and I still am having the after side effects of it.. I can't bear to see any more people who are closer to me leave. No, I just can't bear to see their hearts, so cold.


    Astons with Wayne, Claudia and Thiam Siang, thanks to ah huat cause he kope free drinks for us. Eat until jin jia pa and i finally got my screen protector for my htc :) Then we went to Cafe Cartel for more cakes, mocha frappe, and the free flow of bread. I'm broke to the max. Bus back with Wayne Wang Chong Yan :) I love bus rides. So good to hear people's thoughts and I'm happy when they're willing to trust me with their thoughts. Which reminds me of the countless bus rides i took with Janice and Joseph during the holidays, and our lovely mahjong sessionssssssss at Brandon's house. HAHA Chinese New Year coming ah.. ^^ itchy already, like what dylan and wendy says, if i were to go for deliverance class, i'll vomit out the hong zhong mahjong tile, but to be fully delivered I must vomit out the whole mahjong set. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

    This picture is actually taken at my school parade square ground which my sec1 juniors told me to take cause we notice there were bubbles forming on the ground, very fascinating.

Thursday, 04 February 2010

  • 'The bus 23 experience with Mr. Dylan Jude Xie' - a true story


    Met Mr Xie at tp for lunch(!) Dory-fish hen hao chi(!!!) And we decided to bus down to tampinies mall to get a present for edna, so Mr Xie saw bus 23 coming and the only thing he saw was 'tampinies' on the signboard, so we took the bus. Somehow we realised that we didn't pass tampinies at all. We found ourselves at eunos, then paya lebar.. so we sat on till we reached bugis.. HAHAHA Bus 23 goes all the way to little india, uturn, then pass by tp, then to tampinies, so it seems like we took the wrong side. Having landed at bugis, it was a 'must-do' thing to pass by bugis street, so Mr Xie being very atas was quite fascinated by bugis street. HAHAHA, I'm so certain he did see something he wanted to get. Wanting to head to our destination but somehow we were 'deferred' way off.

    haha, nice day la.

Sunday, 31 January 2010

Sunday, 24 January 2010

  • A 10 year old boy whom i never see before came up to me and tell me about his story.

    Then he said he hardly dream dreams, and he said God gave him a dream yesterday.

    In his dream, he saw me in heaven, wearing white, pure and meek, an angel, with wings and a crown.

    He said that in his dream, i told him to tell me his story.

    So when I was at the wake, he came up to tell me his story.

    His story about how he can never do things so radically without God.

    His story about how he can do anything and everything if he counts on God's strength.

    His dreams of being an evangelist going to africa, multiplication.

    So i told him,

    Don't stop dreaming, don't stop dreaming big dreams, hang and cling onto it.

    Such child-liked faith, so real, am reminded.

    So nice.

    I had a loooooooonnnnngg bus ride back home with my hao peng you.

    After a happy birthday, i think today ended fine.. many thoughts.

    Wo lei le.
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    Ni jing tian chang ge hen hao ting, ke shi ni de xing bu zai.

Saturday, 23 January 2010

  • I'm always been inspired by stories of marctan and i'll always be. To see that he went thru so much of testing and so much of learning to trust in God makes me feel that I myself need to double learn to trust God. Think, when you score 30 for your olvl what would you do? personally i felt today's message preached by marctan was powerful. No more losing focus, no more fear. Let God's vision be in God's light. Seeing someone so real with his thoughts makes me happy. Don't give up your dreams of being an evangelist and even for telok kurau. Today was goooooodd. ah ah siol.

    mou mou ren said i'm heartless :( wah sad.

Friday, 22 January 2010

  • Wo hen happy/zhen de

    Because I know it's time I step in, and I tell you, I won't bloody stand by seeing things this way and not doing anything about it. I can't. It's so Godly that things are now shitty and I'm glad that things are now shit, because I think that's where I step in no matter how tough it is, yes it really is. That's why it's Godly, because I'm placed smack right in the middle. And No, I can't stop thinking. Unexpected but yet I still rmb the big dream and plans we have on our way back home on bus15 a looooooooooooonnngggg time ago. I feel selfish but I'm glad you left and I hope you're doing real good. I really hope ah.................... ah ah siol.

    I am happy for things to be this way leh, zhen de. Wo hen happy, zhen de.

Wednesday, 20 January 2010

Monday, 18 January 2010

Sunday, 17 January 2010

  • to write love on her arms.
    "The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home. God is love.

Thursday, 14 January 2010


  • 10 yrs of education to sit for olvls, and now that result is out, choices to submit in for the JAE admission thing. never have i make such an important decision for my own future before thus the stress. haha. I hope that whatever decision I made, may it be Godly, and be a start of something new. even as I'm excited for tmr's HB conference, i too also await for something to be done in my heart. to love? to be willing to lose my life for love. like what farter says, there's no point trying to preserve this life which is of no value. true enough. that this life on earth is of no value when you try to protect it. but def of value when you're willing to lose it for love. i want to..

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

  • Trying my best to find the best solution and way out for you even at this point. What you need is not comfort. I am not asking for anything in return, I just hope and pray you'll learn to trust God even when it's so hard to believe, even when at this time you feel that prayer won't change anything, then, I'll gladly do it on your behalf. Because, it hurts me to see you this way. I don't know what to do.

Monday, 11 January 2010

  • Today I received an sms from the most surprising person, asking of my result. I still got to say, I can't believe you remembered, I was happy to see your sms. 2 weeks from now wo men jian. bu jian bu san. And yes, veli touch leh. Awaiting your dinner/naicha treat. Steady.

    I didn't ask for much, I didn't do very bad but also not say very good la, haha. Still, I thank God for my results because it's what I worked hard for and what He gave me. All about honouring. Am looking forward to be a part of His greater plans. So what if I'm not a single digit scorer and all, I think I did great. :)

Sunday, 10 January 2010

  • when was the last time we cried over people little acts of love towards us? Half of the time, we feel that people come to us and ask us out because they want something from us. They want company, they want to tell you their problems, they want to ask you for advice, so in a way, they just want a piece of you. But why don't we feel that they just want to eat with us, it's their way of love to us, showing that they care for us? Simple acts like buying a cake from four leaves and giving it to a friend on her birthday can make her cry so much yet put such a warm family feeling in everyone's hearts including her's. So here's to you. Happy Birthday Germaine Toh.

Friday, 08 January 2010

  • If it doesn't break your heart, it isn't love.
    If it doesn't break your heart, it's not enough.
    It is when you break it down, with the insides coming out.

    If it when you find out what your heart is made of.

    You haven't lost me yet.
    You haven't lost me yet.

Thursday, 07 January 2010

  • SICK. HIGH FEVER. SINCE TUESDAY. HIGHEST 39.1 LOWEST 38.8

    Why is everybody falling sick now?

    I die die also must make it on saturday. I don't care even if I'm unable to do back-up, I die die also must be there. I'm wondering, why the sudden everyone's sick? I hate being stop to do things.

    MONDAYMONDAYMONDAY, I'M COMING! RESULTS. btw, I dreamt that I scored 26 points for my olvls. HAHAHA, Ohno. I hope it doesn't come true. PLSPLSPLS. Let this dream not be a vision. haha

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